Just some things
Feb. 14th, 2026 09:14 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nansliceBirthday was the 13th! I'm officially 40! I do not think I have the maturity levels to be a 40 year old! I smoke too much weed and forget laundry in the wash and stay up too late just to regret it deeply in the morning. Shit's crazy. But as Guillermo del Toro said, "As a kid, I dreamed of having a house with secret passages and a room where it rained 24 hours a day. The point of being over 40 is to fulfill the desires you've been harboring since you were 7." So...idek what 7 year old me desired, but it was probably something to do with being happy, so that's what I'm aiming for.
cypher and I played Warhammer 40k: Kill Team today! They with their Plague Marines and me with my Hernkyn Yaegir team. It was a slow match at first but soon there was fierce battling. It ended up being 7 (me) to 10 (them). It was A LOT of fun and I think I learned some things. We're trying to get good enough that we can play in public, haha.
I heard ofspikedluv's passing. It's always so surreal when someone in fandom dies. Like...we're not supposed to do that? I don't know. It's strange. We were not friends but we ran in shared fandom circles and she was such a presence on DW. My heart goes out to all who knew her. <3
cypher and I played Warhammer 40k: Kill Team today! They with their Plague Marines and me with my Hernkyn Yaegir team. It was a slow match at first but soon there was fierce battling. It ended up being 7 (me) to 10 (them). It was A LOT of fun and I think I learned some things. We're trying to get good enough that we can play in public, haha. I heard of
spikedluv's passing. It's always so surreal when someone in fandom dies. Like...we're not supposed to do that? I don't know. It's strange. We were not friends but we ran in shared fandom circles and she was such a presence on DW. My heart goes out to all who knew her. <3
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Date: 2026-02-16 05:50 pm (UTC)being happy
Date: 2026-02-16 05:29 pm (UTC)I dimly recall how important it was to be seen as mature ... when I was in junior high. Something about being a young teen and even a pre-teen where it seems so vital to shun "kid stuff" and convince yourself that you're too grown up for that. By my early twenties, I wasn't quite so adamant about it, but I still cared way too much about what people thought of me, about the goals that I thought I "should" have, et cetera. The great thing about being 40+ is you start going, "So what?" and realizing that other people's definition of maturity/success/etc are irrelevant.
Happy birthday!
Re: being happy
Date: 2026-02-16 05:51 pm (UTC)Thank you! <3
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Date: 2026-02-20 05:54 pm (UTC)I didn't know her but I knew of her, and yeah, it's weird to think of fandom people being gone. (I am still not quite conversant with the fact that my dad is gone.)
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