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[nanslice]

Had a very eye-opening but also very rough therapy session today and I was shook, so my work count suffered a bit. I told my therapist about NaNo and he was very supportive and proud and when I told him I'd been doing it since 2003 but I only made the 50k twice he said, "Yes but you tried" and I didn't cry but I kinda wanted to. And then I cried later on in the session anyway so haha.

Also asked if he'd diagnosed me with anything or if that was something that happened after a few more sessions and he told me that he had already officially diagnosed me with major depressive disorder and an anxiety disorder (is there more than one, I do not know, maybe a generalized one?), and that my anger issues likely stem from the depression, which is good I guess???

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[cocosmileyboo]

There's definitely more than one. There's generalized anxiety, panic disorders... I think OCD is classified as an anxiety disorder, but don't quote me on that. I have generalized anxiety disorder and social anxiety, but I don't know if social anxiety has its own classification or not: I'll have to ask my therapist because now I'm curious. My anger issues stem from my anxiety, or that's what my nurse told me. Mental illness affects people in unexpected ways, that much I do know.

I'm rambling, though.

[shanaqui]

OCD is an anxiety disorder too, yep!

[shanaqui]

It can be helpful to know what anxiety disorder, so if he's narrowed it down it might be good to know! It's easy to self-test for generalised anxiety disorder and track your progress, for example: the GAD7 test is a really good quick and dirty way to watch how you're doing.

(If it helps to have a comparison, at my worst I was 21/21 on the GAD7, I'm now 3/21, "normal", when I'm doing well and even though I feel like I'm doing quite badly, 5/21 today which only counts as "mild anxiety". So also it may be good to know that even if you have a massively high score, things can change and you can be okay. I have been living with GAD for, oooh, seven years now, so if you do have GAD and have any questions, feel free to ask! I felt I had to say this because I used to think I could never get better and it was so scary. It's not true. Most people with anxiety disorders will always have to live with an inclination to get anxious that they have to work with, but they do not have to be scared all the time. Nobody told me that and I wish they had.)

[stormsong]

I get really angry when I forget to take my depression meds...?

I am barely doing NaNo. I wrote some after midnight on Nov 1, but it was in a notebook and I haven't counted it yet. I will write some more tonight so I can tell you that I did!

[stormsong]

I did write! Yay!

[divinemusings]

*hugs* and I'm glad you are getting some answers. <3

[lil_1337]

Sounds like a very productive session.

[masu_trout]

Haha, yeah, I've never really gotten through a therapy session without crying a bit. Even if it's just been a super normal and stable time, suddenly being in The Emotion Zone just kinda brings it all out.

Congrats on going, though! It's a good thing to have in your life, IMO.