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Hello DW friends, how are you? I've been very sad lately and I don't understand why.
Classes have started and I'm pretty overwhelmed.
While geology doesn't seem to be a problem, the geology lab was terrifying and hard, filled with math and despair. I asked the professor if it was going to stay that math based and she said no but I'm still pretty terrified.
Etching isn't quite was I thought it was going to be. Instead, it's a mixture of etching and printmaking and tbh the printmaking part doesn't really interest me in the slightest. I might end up dropping it. I'll still have 13 hours, which is full time.
History is history. We're going over ancient history, prehistory, right now. I'm enjoying it, even if I'm unsure about the professor.
Art criticism is awful. I don't know how it's worse than art history but it is and I'm so mad about it, haha.
We haven't really done much in painting so far.
I went to the dentist on Thursday and it wasn't quite as bad as I'd expected it to be. I ended up missing class and work on Thursday-Friday, but I was assured that that was the norm for oral surgery so I did my best to not feel guilty about it, hahaha. I now have another appointment September 24th, so that's happening. That's just going to be fillings though so, you know, not so bad.
I looked for a therapist in my area but they're all either Christian-based or family counseling, which isn't what I'm after. I need to figure out what's wrong with me. Mom told me she didn't think I needed one, that my feelings are because classes have started and I don't have free time anymore, plus my job is being really dumb and also because I don't have my own place. I kinda thought maybe yeah, except this has also been going on over the summer when I had free time. I know that a lot of my depression and anger issues are because I'm feeling trapped and I'm not sure how much talking to a therapist would actually help. I think having a game plan and planning for the future would be more helpful, if I could just manage how to do that.
Anyway, this is a sad post. I'm working on art and writing Stucky for [Bad username or unknown identity: fan_flashworks"]. I've finally decided to buckle down and get some of those achievement badges.
Classes have started and I'm pretty overwhelmed.
While geology doesn't seem to be a problem, the geology lab was terrifying and hard, filled with math and despair. I asked the professor if it was going to stay that math based and she said no but I'm still pretty terrified.
Etching isn't quite was I thought it was going to be. Instead, it's a mixture of etching and printmaking and tbh the printmaking part doesn't really interest me in the slightest. I might end up dropping it. I'll still have 13 hours, which is full time.
History is history. We're going over ancient history, prehistory, right now. I'm enjoying it, even if I'm unsure about the professor.
Art criticism is awful. I don't know how it's worse than art history but it is and I'm so mad about it, haha.
We haven't really done much in painting so far.
I went to the dentist on Thursday and it wasn't quite as bad as I'd expected it to be. I ended up missing class and work on Thursday-Friday, but I was assured that that was the norm for oral surgery so I did my best to not feel guilty about it, hahaha. I now have another appointment September 24th, so that's happening. That's just going to be fillings though so, you know, not so bad.
I looked for a therapist in my area but they're all either Christian-based or family counseling, which isn't what I'm after. I need to figure out what's wrong with me. Mom told me she didn't think I needed one, that my feelings are because classes have started and I don't have free time anymore, plus my job is being really dumb and also because I don't have my own place. I kinda thought maybe yeah, except this has also been going on over the summer when I had free time. I know that a lot of my depression and anger issues are because I'm feeling trapped and I'm not sure how much talking to a therapist would actually help. I think having a game plan and planning for the future would be more helpful, if I could just manage how to do that.
Anyway, this is a sad post. I'm working on art and writing Stucky for [Bad username or unknown identity: fan_flashworks"]. I've finally decided to buckle down and get some of those achievement badges.