Plant your hope with good seeds

This post originally started with "Happy Solstice!" That's how long this window has been open. XD;;

Honestly, June ended up being really troubling.

( Parental illness, impending death, major depression )

But anyways, it's now July! Which is very nice. I've been playing A LOT of Stardew Valley, which has just been the best. I made it one year in my Guilliman farm but now I'm playing my farm, now that I understand how to actually play this game. I get it now. It all makes sense. I want to live in Stardew Valley. ;o;

In real life gardening, yesterday was the first harvest of the snap peas!


(please excuse the dirty wooden spoon on the stove!)

I popped them in a chicken stir fry and they were so delicious. :D There's loads more on the vines so W's gonna make hummus and we'll something tasty to dip them in.

I'm very slowly getting a signup together for battleshipex! Am pretty excited to participate this year. I'm a terrible teammate tho, I don't play to win, I just play to have fun, haha. I want to treat it like rare kink buffet, where I'm just hyperfocused and creating so much stuff. I know it won't play out exactly the same way, since that was entirely anonymous so even tho I was writing off prompts, it still wasn't for anyone. But we'll see! I'm excited. :)

I also resubbed FFXIV and bought Dawntrail but it's been pretty slow-going and my focus is absolutely terrible, haha. I really like the graphical differences! My WoL is so beautiful. <3 Here he is, altho how irritating that it's not showing his glamours. :\


So I'll just post a picture of him that I took! I very much love Yesun. He's a terrible RPG hero but he's great to get beers with! Which is why I need to get to Dawntrail, vacation expansion is entirely up his alley. |D

Tomorrow is the 4th of July and we are Americans but I don't think we're going to be doing too much. I think I'm going to try to be creative again, since I've definitely fallen of any kind of art. :\a And also maybe play some more Stardew Valley and FFXIV. |3

I didn't feel well today but I made it through work, then went to pick up some groceries. While I was there, I decided to check my blood pressure. 172/108 with a heart rate of 100. Y i k e s. I came home, took something, and it's okay now. This Thursday is the first anniversary of my dad's death. I'm pretty sure that has something to do with it.

Handel won in the GA 16th district. This is disheartening, even though it's not that surprising. I hate this state. The south would be a great place if weren't for the people.

I'm not doing great right now, haha.

It's quiet. The Olympics are on tv but it's turned low, so we can pay attention if we want and ignore it if we want. It's just Mom and me. She's in her chair and I can faintly hear the sounds of her clicking the mouse. I'm on the couch. The air purifier is humming away, creating a lovely white noise. The kittens have been playing in non-destructive ways and now Penelope is sitting on the couch with me. The dogs are quiet. It's a little bit cloudy out, so the sunlight is a soft grey where it's trickling in from the blinds and the glass door leading out to the back porch.

It's a good morning. :)

OH and I suppose I should add that I'm reading A Year's Temptation by lomonaaeren, which is an oldie but goodie.

☆ We watched Independence Day: Resurgence! ( Spoilers )

☆ Mom and I went to the nearby outlet mall and did some shopping (I bought the cutest fucking leggings, aaaahh so precious) and ate out at a pretty nice restaurant. We were both in a good mood and we both got some good walking in before it got to hot to breath. It's been a good day. ;3;

☆ I've been on the NoSleep forum on Reddit and man, some of them have fucked me up, lmao. I'll be doing a rec post sometime in the future, although chances are if you're into creepy stories, you've already read the ones that I'm going to rec.

☆ I've had to do some pretty heavy lifting (70-80lb dogs from floor to about chest height) over the past week and I'm paying for it now. I'm pretty sure I pulled some muscles in my shoulder and chest; I'm experiencing a gentle, pulsing pain just under my right breast, going up to my shoulder. Boooo. If it doesn't go away, I'm going to the doctor and seeing if they can give me something. :\

☆ I'M ON VACATION! \o/! Until next Thursday! It's going to be an easy going week, I think. Catching up on sleep (if I can, reading the stupid spoopy stories I'm reading), catching up on shows (Voltron, mostly!), and spending time with my puppies and kitties. ;3;

Many thanks for the well wishes and hugs from my last post. Hugs are always welcomed and appreciated. ♥ ♥

I'm taking Dad to the hospital today for his first round of testing. I'll probably be spending a goodly portion of it in the waiting room so hopefully I can manage to get some quality sketches in.

Thanks for your support, guys. I'll keep you updated.

Today my workload is: working at regular job from 9am-6pm, going to my boss's house and taking care of her pets (she's out of town), and then going to my sister's shop and deep cleaning everything. It's a long day. I also have to work tomorrow. (｡•́︿•̀｡)

But! I have Friday off, so that's a thing right? Right. Happy thoughts. ;3;

Still thinking about participating in spook_me. I want to write a haunted house story, set in a cold wilderness! Thanks for the inspiration, Until Dawn. XD I just need a fandom that would work well for that. I could possibly make MCU work and have Steve, Natasha, and Sam looking for Bucky and find themselves trapped in a house for a night or so. :\a idk though. Writing a bunch of teenagers would probably be easier for that kind of setting.

Despite being super hot and sunshiney, today feels like autumn. It's making me feel nostalgic (like everything else, haha).

My first two days of class were okay. I've a feeling I'm going to adore geology and the professor who teaches it; she's enthusiastic and wonderfully nerdy. History is going to be a struggle. Not the subject, because I love ancient world history, but the professor is going to be a problem. Fortunately I'm the type of student who can completely ignore the professor if I need to. Metal etching is intimidating and painting 3 is going to be fiiiiine. First day of art crit is Monday and first day of geo lab is Tuesday. We'll see how it goes. It was really nice to see my school friends again and experiencing people enthused about seeing me was a nice thing. XD

Last night, Kiddo and I lay in bed and watched Spirited Away. My tv is quite small (a 20 inch) so I pulled the stand until it was touching the foot of the bed at one corner, which made the space feel smaller. That, plus the window unit running, a small lamp on, and the dogs asleep in their crates made the whole thing very cozy. ;3;

Work continues to be very stressful, mainly because the woman hired to be the new office manager apparently doesn't know what the hell she's doing, even after a month of training. She had a panic attack last Thursday when I can in and I try to be sympathetic but it's difficult when she's already cried on my shoulder three times. This may not be the place for her. My boss has also decided to throw more responsibilities my way, which was pretty stupid since she knows classes have started and I'm going to be working much less. It's so annoying.

I'm hoping that come Monday, everything settles down. I'll be off work which will be nice, so hopefully when I get home from school I'll be able to sit down and finish the things I meant to get done before classes started, lmao whoops.

It's July! CAMP NANOWRIMO TIME GUYS. That, plus commissions, means I might not be here too much. I'm going to try, obviously, because I really love keeping up with my journal but omg time. |D

Basically all I did yesterday was watch Agents of SHIELD and draw before going to work. It was pretty great. \o/ Typically I'm off on Mondays and Tuesdays but since the past two days were the last days of the month, I volunteered to work them and be on Thursday and Friday instead (I have to work Wednesdays, it's pretty non-negotiable). That ended up working out pretty well; I get two days of at the beginning of July (camp!), I'm going to be working all day July 4th (we're closed but someone has to go in, might as well get some hours in!) and my typical all day Sunday (so those two days are going to be bracketed by four days off~), and...okay, I don't have a third point but those two points are good enough. |D

I hope it rains today. I hope it rains the next two days. Please rain. ;3;

So my final project for 3-D was to create a tape sculpture of myself and install it somewhere on campus. It has to interact with it's environment in some kind of way and props can be used.

( This is what I came up with )

I'm going to see Age of Ultron Friday and I am so hyped. I've run into some spoilers - mostly some asshole anon over at fandomsecrets - but idc, I'm so excited. :D

I'm debating whether or not I want to create a journal or wordpress account for professional (read: original) work. The comic I'm writing should probably have it's own site. HMMMM. :\a