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May. 26th, 2016 09:54 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
nansliceToday, yesterday, and the day before were really great days. All three mornings, I got up to find Dad already at the kitchen table, having made his own coffee. Talkative and cheerful. I bought some high protein Boost for him because it helps with maintaining muscles and he drank a little bottle two of the days. He's been wheeling himself around in his chair, getting to the bathroom on his own, moving from his recliner to his bed to his chair on his own.
However he's not been sleeping well and tonight he's tired. I'm hoping it's only that he's tired anyway. I've been at work for most of the day and evening but Mom said that his speech has been disrupted; like he can't really think of the words to use and he also can't seem to get them out right. My research tells me this is how most people find out they have brain cancer. We found out in a much more extreme way (losing control of his right limbs) but I'm hoping that this isn't something else the cancer is causing. I'm hoping that it's just because he's tired. I hope he can sleep tonight.
He's also coughing a lot. When we were in the hospital, the nurse said that his lungs sounded great. I'm hoping it's just congestion or something. I hope that he'll tell me if he's pain.
As for me, I think I've finally come to terms with this. I'm sleeping much better and not feeling nearly as panicked as I was before. My appetite has come back. I can think of the more practical aspects of this whole thing without getting emotional. I got some blood pressure medicine that has helped a lot on that front. I'm also spending more time both at work and in fandom again.
I feel guilty that I'm coping better, which is stupid and irrational that's what emotions are.
However he's not been sleeping well and tonight he's tired. I'm hoping it's only that he's tired anyway. I've been at work for most of the day and evening but Mom said that his speech has been disrupted; like he can't really think of the words to use and he also can't seem to get them out right. My research tells me this is how most people find out they have brain cancer. We found out in a much more extreme way (losing control of his right limbs) but I'm hoping that this isn't something else the cancer is causing. I'm hoping that it's just because he's tired. I hope he can sleep tonight.
He's also coughing a lot. When we were in the hospital, the nurse said that his lungs sounded great. I'm hoping it's just congestion or something. I hope that he'll tell me if he's pain.
As for me, I think I've finally come to terms with this. I'm sleeping much better and not feeling nearly as panicked as I was before. My appetite has come back. I can think of the more practical aspects of this whole thing without getting emotional. I got some blood pressure medicine that has helped a lot on that front. I'm also spending more time both at work and in fandom again.
I feel guilty that I'm coping better, which is stupid and irrational that's what emotions are.
