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I've drawn three Warhammer things for Rare Kink Buffet 2025 and they each have very different vibes. I'm pleased. ;3; One of them is a fivesome, do y'all realize how difficult that is to draw? PHEW. There's still a couple of weeks to create more stuff and I would like to but I'd also like to post something sooner than that. XD; I would like praise pls. ;3;

(so important to create for yourself but also I want people to see what I have made and then tell me nice things about it and I think it should be okay for all of us to admit that lol)

I've been rereading A Year's Temptation, which is one of my very favorite Harry/Draco fics. I don't really fuck with HP anymore and haven't participated in that fandom in, gosh, I don't know how long, but that particular fic is a cozy blanket (it's a creature fic with lots of manipulation, there's cheating, it's a messy, tasty fic). As it's pretty grey and chilly out, it's a good day for comfort reads. <3

Anyways, today Will had PT so Selphie and I tagged along and took a pretty intense little walk! Here she is in all her majesty (taking an epic snooze). <3

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Happy Fall, everyone! ♥ I'm really not ready for the weather to change; the short days absolutely kill me. XD; But I can't deny fall is the prettiest season and it puts me in such a cozy mood. ;3; I made the first stew of the season on Friday! Beef and barley stew. First time making this and using this cut of meat (chuck steak) so it ended up being a bit chewy, but the veggies and broth were amazing. Nomf nomf. <3

Continuing to play Stardew Valley, which is the exact kind of coziness I've needed! I've spotted Krobus for the first time. <3

I've finally bought a ticket and will be visiting back home next weekend. Friday-Sunday, yes that's a short trip for what's five hours of flight time, not to mention the fucking airport bullshit. But I'm grateful to be able to go.


EDIT: I started this entry last week. I ended up not visiting back home this weekend because of Hurricane Helene. :\ It actually has been, and continues to be, an absolutely wonderful time spent with [personal profile] cypher. Which is frankly what I would rather be doing anyway. :P

Yesterday, we went down to Tacoma to pick up some supplies at the Warhammer store and W bought a book that seems extremely promising and gay; Yndrasta: The Celestial Spear. <3 I have her mini and it's easily the one I am most proud of so far. ;3;

This morning we went to a coffee shop and did a bit of writing. I've just started Space Marine 2 and I'm having feelings. Shippy feelings. I haven't written porn in a long time but damn it if I'm going get something written and posted today. I'm holding myself to this and because I've posted it here, now I really actually gotta do it. Because fanfiction is a hobby and it doesn't have to be perfect. Raaah! Let's fucking go!

Anyways, I hope y'all's weekend is going well! I'm going to be spending part of the day catching up on my reading page so if you get an influx of comments, it might just be me yapping. XD

Edit: I have completed a ~1k fic! It is even porn! With a beginning, middle, and end! Holding off on posting anywhere until tomorrow, I want to give myself time to check grammar and stuff. But I did it! I wrote fic! I'm so happy!
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This was all written on Wednesday.

Lads, the only good thing about working at Whole Foods was that my coworkers thought I was in my mid-twenties. As a 38 year old woman, that was pretty sweet lmao. But I quickly realized I'm over retail work so W and I agreed that I should just hold off until my actual job starts in mid-July. I pulled from my 401k to just keep myself afloat until then; honestly I'll be fine.

The only problem with this is that I'm terrible at staying home. I'm purely an extrovert and interacting with others is pretty crucial to my mental health. Unfortunately, going outside often costs money (especially in this expensive ass city) so I'm holding off doing anything like that (yes, I do go for walks in parks and stuff, for sure, but that's more a nature thing than a socializing thing). It's tough, guys!

There are a couple of things this weekend I want to do and I'm hoping they both can work out. Folklife is happening this weekend and I'd love to hit it up on Saturday. On Sunday, our favorite local game store is having a little kitten popup event with one of the local shelters. I don't want to adopt a kitten but I sure would love to play with some. ;3;

Today was a pretty funky day for both of us so we took a little dog out for a nice walk and some coffee.

AND NOW IT'S THURSDAY. XD

H/T to [personal profile] misbegotten: Fandom can do a little gatekeeping. As a treat. Man, does this truly sum up all the problems I've had with fandom in the past few years. Tourist is certainly not my favorite term; I'm mostly familiar with jerkass alt-right Warhammer 40k fans using it against anyone who is "White male sexless Space Marines" but other than that, I get all of this. The entitlement (which has always been there but seems to have ramped up), the commodification of fandom, the content farming...it's all so very frustrating. Fandom and the internet has changed so much and it's so frustrating and weh! And also, like, as a fanartist, it's like....art theft x20. It's fandom theft lmao. It just makes me real mad lol.

...anyways, I clearly had a lot of feelings about this! Maybe you will too. Who knows.
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Once again, I've left this window open long enough that none of the times make sense. I'm gonna have to update all my chatter lmao.

On Friday I got a call back for the receptionist position with Amazon by way of Northwest Center with a job offer, tentative start date of July 15th. :o So that's pretty neat, better get refamiliarized with Excel. XD I'm gonna keep the little part time job I got (that I start tomorrow, woo!) to have cashflow between now then and maybe I can work out something so that I can stay part-time there and keep that sweet, sweet grocery discount.

It reached the low 80s the past couple of days 26.5- 27.7c) and I was disgusted but it seems to be staying a bit cooler today. My plants were pretty happy about the heat but now the lack of rain is getting to them, so time to start watering everyone. ;o;

Also on Friday I watched the Smosh Live Sitcom and omg, it was so good. I laughed so hard. I really appreciate how well this cast works together; I definitely think this is a Smosh Golden Era. ;3;

On Sunday we had some friends come over for hangouts. There was one no call, no show, which we thought they wouldn't be able to come because of Mother's Day, but they also didn't even...let us know anything? We were to meet up at 1, at 1:40 I messaged them asking if they were going to show, and at nearly 5 they finally messaged back with just "No." No. Not even a "sorry" or "my bad" or anything. So I immediately responded with "lmao kinda figured that" and that was all that was said about the matter. This is not the first time they've done this but it's definitely the last. I don't really have enough friends to get rid of one but this person isn't really being much of a friend, frankly! I've spent too long being around people who casually disrespect me, I'm not going to allow this anymore. Done. ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

I've completed my first Warhammer army! It's a kill team army, so smaller than other armies, but that's okay; the guy at our local gaming store said it still counts. :D It's the Drukhari Mandrake set! Pictures of my faves under the cut!

Cut for fake blood! )

I'm so pleased, especially with the skirts. ;3;

Today is very nice and sunny! I got out and mowed most of the backyard. I was pulled the lawnmower backwards and ended up falling into one of our raised beds; I very much hope the beets are okay! |D Now I'm in the cool and kinda dark living room and am full of macaroni and cheese. I'm gonna be hard-pressed not to take a nap. |D
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I was going to start this post with "How is it already August?" but friends, it's August 11th. How? Why? I realize my last post was opining it being already mid-July so it looks like I'm just incapable of keeping up with time. I've kind of been having trouble keeping up with much of anything lately, and I suspect that's because I'm really suffering some major depression. Sometimes I can't even remember what I did in an evening, because I didn't actually do anything. Just...refreshed the same five websites over and over. And that's no good! That's not really how I want to spend my time!

So last night I started playing Baldur's Gate. No, not the 3rd one, the 1st, lol. I haven't played it in a very long time, and never by myself (always with at least one other person) so I honestly have no idea how the story goes. But it's time to find out! And fingers crossed that I actually finish it and the sequel by the time I can actually play the 3rd, lol.

I also used a new email for Crunchyroll so I could use the trial and maybe watch some anime! Because I like anime! I can watch an episode here and there! Especially since I'm planning on attending Sakura-Con next year! And there are a couple of summer shows that look like they'd be really fun! Like Undead Murder Farce and and Zom 100! And The Masterful Cat is Depressed Again Today and The Great Cleric!. So, yeah.

I haven't even been reading very much Warhammer! Which, I have access to so many books. They're right there! There's a new release in November that I would love to be prepared for! But gosh. Consuming media has just been so difficult lately. It's like I just don't have the focus for anything anymore. I want to! But.

Yeah, anyways, this is why I'm thinking my depressos have been quietly working overtime and I've just kept brushing off any concerns until, here I am, just a puddle of sads and lack of interest.

But no more. It's the weekend! I'm about to go outside and play with my dog and cut for drug usage ) pot my new plants that just came in the mail, and then I'm going to sit down and play some Baldur's Gate (on story mode, so that mentioned drug usage won't fuck me over too badly).

I hope everyone is doing well!
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Thanks to everyone who commented on my previous post! I really appreciate you guys. ;o; I took a week to kind of recoup and just chill and tend to the house and stuff before realizing not working at all stresses me out ALMOST as much as working at a terrible job. Weeee! But I didn't need to go into a full time position or anything, that seemed really unnecessary. So guess who's gone back to dog walking! With a different company than last time; this company pays weekly, and pays more for multiple dog households.

Today was my first day! It was basically training (and this dog walking position trained me more than the merchandising position would have!) where I got meet up with my trainer and we basically worked the day together. AND GUYS.

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I CAN'T FEEL MY GOTDAMN FEET. XD This is the equivalent of 8.74 miles, according to the internet (14.06km). I'm so tired. XD; Although today was much busier than the average day, according to my trainer.

Aside from my feet hurting, I feel pretty good! And pretty proud of myself! And most of the dogs I had today were good!

Also



Some of the neighborhoods have gorgeous views. :3

So anyways...things are better! I still catch myself getting really anxious sometimes (last night I was a little bit of a mess) but I'm maintaining and handling it and I'm doing much better.

Ooof

Dec. 7th, 2022 08:10 pm
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Uhm mental health stuff and suicide ideation except I realized what was happening and immediately got help )

So that's that! I'm...still fairly emotionally fragile and I've randomly been tearing up. I'm privileged enough to be in a position where I can take some time off from work. W called it some midwinter wifing, I called it being a housecarl, either way it means I'll be staying home for a little while. Get my bearings back, I guess.

But! I did manage to get the Christmas tree decorated and made stockings for everyone! That's...that's something, right?
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Friday, Selphie and I took a nice 1.6 mile walk around the neighborhood. She got to wear her brand new harness and it was QUITE chilly. Definitely a good walk tho, we both needed it. Some talk about calorie burning ) There's a person on the Seattle subreddit that does 14-40 mile urban hikes every Saturday and I'm legit in awe of them. I doubt I'll ever get to quite that level but maybe doing a 5 mile walk would be pretty neat. :3

Saturday, [personal profile] cypher and I faced the snow and went for pho as a lunch date. It was really nice! The place we went to had really soft holiday music playing and was brightly lit and had plants everywhere. It was just a really nice atmosphere. And I mean, what's better on a cold day than hot, brothy soup? I could absolutely go for some right this instant lmao.

Today has been an intensely chill day. I woke up with a migraine and applied food, water, caffeine, and pain pills to it before going back to bed. I woke up back up at noon and proceeded to do little to nothing for the entire day. Woo! Oh, I managed to get the Christmas tree up! None of the ornaments are on but the tree itself is up!

Tomorrow, lots things need to happen. Including something that I don't want to mention just yet, just in case it falls through (please don't please don't please don't) but also: cleaning up the house, getting ornaments on the tree, possibly taking a little dog out to a park somewhere. We'll see!

Oh, also, I updated my journal layout! [personal profile] nanslice! It needs to match the season. ;3;
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Temperatures have dropped sharply here and we got a bit of snow. I've spent the day in fuzzy pajamas and socks, with a blanket around my shoulders. I've also managed to finally put my flannel sheets on the bed and they're extremely cozy.



Selphie girl modeling for you. ♥

It also seemed like a good day to start a new game in Skyrim? It was on a pretty steep sale on Steam so I snagged it and immediately started modding things. I'd never played on PC before so that was a bit of a learning experience but I figured it out quickly enough with a friend's help.



I'm really pleased with how she looks! It's been a long time since I've played so it all feels new to me. I'm also playing as a stealth archer, which is way outside of what I typically like to play as (me + stealthing = failure) but it's going pretty well so far. [personal profile] cypher also started a new game; they're playing a Khajiit on their PS4. It's a lot of fun to be able to play near each other (my desk is right next to their spot on the couch) and it feels like a bit of a bonding activity haha.

Tomorrow is my first day at my new job and I'm trying not to be nervous about it. Technically I'm in the same position (for now), just in a different store, but it's with a completely different team and I'm sure there are lots of things they do differently. But there's no reason to fret. I just need to be open to learning how to do things the way this store does them.

(I'm a pretty social extrovert who's generally good with people, I know this, people have told me this, but that does not help with the nerves haha)

ANYWAY. Right now there is heavy sleeting happening outside so soon I'll be in bed, cuddling a dog and at least one cat, and slowly ticking away at Cats and Soup. When I think about that, there really doesn't seem to be anything at all to worry about.
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I'm going on a field trip! :D The art department is hosting a trip to several nearby places; ATHICA, the Athens Institute for Contemporary Art; The Lyndon House Arts Center; The Georgia Museum of Art. Somehow, I've never been to any of these places! I don't know how that happened, haha. I'm pretty excited about this and I hope that I gain some measure of inspiration from it.

We spent most of today under a severe storm warning. It seems to be over now, although we're still under wind advisories and flash flood watches. :\ We'll see how it goes. My night class wasn't canceled but as my mom and I live in a trailer and I am the only driver/have the only vehicle, I wasn't about to leave her alone here. BUT a friend's night class was canceled so I'm just like that's not fair. :\ Oh well.

I'm reading long, romantic/happy ending, standby fics lately. A Dog's Life (Frank Castle/Foggy Nelson). Something Dumb to Do (Matt Murdock/Foggy Nelson). Consolation (Sherlock Holmes/Greg Lestrade). Once More, With Feeling (Sherlock Holmes/John Watson). National Pastime (John McClane/Matt Farrell). I recommend all of these fics if you want a guaranteed happy ending. ♥ ♥ ♥

Oh, I made my farewell post over on LJ and I added where I can be found online. Figured I should also share that here, even though I'm pretty sure I recently did this, haha:

[twitter.com profile] nan_the_ghost
[archiveofourown.org profile] nan
Instagram: heartfeltghoststudios
Goodreads: Nanners

And there you go!

.....oh, welp. I hear thunder grumbling again. Bad weather makes me so sleep.
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We watched Logan yesterday for my nephew's birthday. Now, I'm not a huge X-Men fan, I don't really care that much about these movies. Spoilers )

Anyway, we're supposed to have some pretty severe weather today. We'll see! I really enjoy thunderstorms but I'd rather not have the hail or super duper high winds.

So last Friday we had our installed critique for our projects in graphic design. Two professors critiqued me; the ceramics professor (also the head of the art department) and the art history professor (also the museum director). It was a mixed bag! The major points ended up being:

Ceramics Professor: He basically made the suggestion that I'm not knowledgeable enough about the zodiac to do this project justice. He also questioned why I made Taurus a girl since Taurus is symbolized by a bull and bulls are male. HOWEVER, today my graphic design professor told me not to worry about that, to not worry about these kinds of gender absolutions. Also, she seemed to appreciate that I didn't take his criticism to heart; honestly I don't respect his opinion very much so I wasn't too bothered by why he said, haha.

Art History Professor: She was so, so enthused. She wanted me to add a border around the posters so they can be more easily framed. She wants me to finish the set and write some kind of narrative (she specifically mentioned a graphic novel/manga). She also told me to look into making figurines (!!!) of the characters. She loved my color palettes and was just really supportive and awesome.

SO YEAH. A mixed bag but the ceramics professor is a toolbag - one of my classmates made oil candles and he ruined one by turned it upside down and shaking it, which made her cry - so I'm absolutely going to listen to the art history professor, since she is so supportive and crazy smart and just awesome.

I've done some research into making figurines and wow, is that expensive. I also thought about creating dolls using Dollfie Plus dolls (the ones about the size of Barbies) but apparently those are no longer produced???? But then I thought about making plush dolls, which would be, in theory, a lot easier to do. I'm going to try making one and see how it goes; it might go pretty well.

Both art history professor and graphic design professor would like me to expand this so that it can be my capstone; so the posters, the cards, the figurines/plushies, apparel, stickers/buttons, stuff like that. I'm pretty excited!

the display for my zodiac project

Here's my display in the retail space! There's a spotlight on it so photos don't look so great, haha. The posters will be for sale but I need to redo the cards, since they're not really cut very well; plus it's only half and there's no reason to sell a half a deck of cards.
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We did our Christmas yesterday and it wasn't as painful as I was expecting! The children were loud and playful, of course, but no one was permanently injured and only one toy was broken so I'm considering it a win. XD My gift haul was a set of 72 Derwent watercolor pencils (!!!), some super cute slippers with Schnauzer heads on them, some clothes, some money, and some drawing pads and those "adult coloring pencils" marketed for the adult coloring books (and I'm not sure why the family member who got me these...got me these; she complains about my high dollar taste in art supplies and she still did this, haha, oh well). They'll be good for sketching. :D

Getting on a plane tomorrow afternoon! There'll be lots of running around, getting the dogs to where they need to be, finishing up packing, so I'll probably be pretty scarce around here until maybe Friday or Saturday.

I hope everyone is having good holidays! The year is almost over, aaaahhh.
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THANKSGIVING BREEEAAAAK. I don't actually have much of a break, since I still work today and Friday, but at least I don't have to go to class (I would have...preferred it the other way around but you know, I can't have everything). I don't actually like Thanksgiving very much and my sister is coming over, which is kind of a bummer (my fault, I invited her), but that's okay. At least I get some time off. |D

The waiting room thing Monday went well; I ended up playing a lot of Pokemon rather than wrote, haha, but I have 2/4 fics finished of the ones I was prompted, and I think I'll work on the rest for my advent calendar.

SPEAKING OF WHICH, the advent calendar is looking to be very Yuri on Ice related, because I'm adoring these characters and I love Victuuri and Russian!Yuri and Leo/Guang-Hong and Phichit and I just. I want to get to do things for all of them. So...you know. Probably very Yuri on Ice focused. Sorry other fandoms. |D

GOSH anyway, I gotta get ready for work (boo) but I'm feeling really positive and happy today. Yay. :D

FALL BREAK

Oct. 8th, 2016 09:03 pm
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Guess who's OFFICIALLY ON FALL BREAK AAAAHHH. No work + no school + three days = very happy Nan. ;3;
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I honestly have no idea what I've been doing with my time. I haven't watched anything new recently, I haven't been drawing very much, I haven't written anything. I've studied a bit of ChoiceScript and I've been working but other than that??? idk, man.

SPEAKING OF WORKING I'm writing my resignation letter to the vet hospital because I've been offered more time at the receptionist job and I'm going to take her up on her offer. It's my sister, btw, so of course. XD It's less hourly pay but more and better hours and I'll be home in the evening for my parents so it's definitely a good idea. I just. Resignation letters are really hard. Aaaaahhh.

Still madly in love with Avengers Academy but I'm getting worried that I won't be able to get Bucky before this event ends. I WILL THROW MONEY AT THIS DUMB GAME IF IT COMES DOWN TO THAT.

The new Voltron cartoon starts June 10th and I didn't even know about it until this morning but I'm excited. :D
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Steam's having a sale so I bought This War is Mine and Deadlight. Let's see how that goes, lmao. I'm now avoiding all sales as best I can because I've spent too much money (....not on those games hahaha) and I need to stop. ;3;

I bought about six copic markers and have been informed that this is the end for me. I have a boatload of prismacolor markers but I can already tell the copics are superior. Thankfully, they can be used together so that's good (at least that's what I've been told, I haven't had time to test it out)! I look forward to drawing a lot of certain Jedis, hahaha I am obsessed. ;3;

SPEAKING OF WHICH, there's a five part miniseries comic called Obi-wan & Anakin and of course, I have the first two parts. The art is fantastic and it's a nice snippet of life for Obi-wan and Anakin. I personally would have preferred it being based more on their day to day lives as Master and Padawan but instead it's some kind of mission going on. Still, it provides some really great characterization for both men. And did I mention the art is fantastic? The artists really love Obi-wan. He constantly looks so damn majestic and almost leonine. Just wonderful.

I bought paid time for dreamwidth! Woo! Time to get some new icons.
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So there's been yet another tumblr post about how much everyone misses LJ/DW. I reblogged it in hopes that more people see it. ;3;

I was bad and ordered Until Dawn. I'm terrible with horror games but this one is more of an interactive story (like Telltale's games!) so I'm probably going to be able to handle this. It plays off of slasher movie tropes, which I adore and forces the player to make choices that can have a ripple effect throughout the game. Basically, this is The Butterfly Effect: The Game. I can dig it. |3 I'm going to play it in the dark with headphones on and be so scared, it's going to be GREAT.

I haven't really been consuming much media lately. I might have talked [personal profile] imperion to watch Arslan Senki; I'll probably pick that back up before long. I also need to catch up on Agents of SHIELD before the 3rd season starts airing.

I still haven't been able to focus on things very well lately. It's frustrating when I look at things I need to get done. Oh well. ;;;;

It might be time to change my DW layout. :\a
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While today is a work day, tonight is a "get shit done at home" night.

- Finish inking the first page, scan each panel and put them together
- Scan and color sister's business card logo
- Bathe Selphie and Murray
- Brush Murray, he's shedding and it's getting matted up
- Watch episodes 3 and 4 of Gundam Wing
- Catch up on Arslan Senki!
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Since the season finale of Agents of SHIELD aired last night, I'm hoping the second season gets added to Netflix soon. I could just download it but meeeeh, downloading is such a hassle and my internet has extremely wonky lately. 8|

I wrote an original thing for the GoodReads Love is an Open Road Event and while I'm not sure I'm entirely proud of what I came up with (I quite love the characters and the idea though, so I might be revisiting at a later date) and I'm kind of proud that I managed to bang out a coherent story in a couple of days (...I really shouldn't have signed up for this thing) and it also ended up being the longest thing I've ever written and actually completed (~5k which isn't too terribly impressive but I was pleased anyway).

In somewhat related news, I'm kind of interested in participating in [livejournal.com profile] bb_shousetsu for their sports thing. I mean it's called GUYS AND BALLS. How could I pass that up?! But the question is whether to write, draw, or offer up illustration services? I don't know. :\a

I'm quite sleepy and I have to work tonight. ;;; Why do days off go so fast?

Edit: I signed up to write and to maybe illustrate my own story over on bb_shousetsu, wish me luck. ;;;;
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I'm watching After Earth and these are some of the most lifeless performances I've ever seen. Will Smith is pulling the asshole dad routine and I DON'T CARE FOR IT AT ALL.

I started a new game in FFXII, which might have been a mistake considering what a time sink that game is, haha. I really love the world of Ivalice and Vaan and Penelo don't bother nearly as much as they apparently bother other people. In fact I feel something of a kinship with Vaan; he doesn't know what the hell is going on and neither do I.

I meant to write today but instead I watched trashed tv and slept. WAY TO GO ME. I have a nice new notebook with nice new paper that's just itching to have words on it.

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