Plant your hope with good seeds

I still want to reply to comments to my last post but I also want to babble so that's gonna happen first lol.

Found out some unpleasant stuff about my immediate boss ( transphobia and misogyny ). So that's kind of a bummer and I'm heavily thinking about applying to a higher level position that's no longer under him. It would be a bump in pay, I would actually receive raises (I was hired in at the highest level pay for my position), and it'd eventually be a hybrid schedule. There's three months of training that goes into it, it's definitely a more specialized field and my workload would increase, but I would like to continue working in this (frankly, shitty) company and earning a pension, and I enjoy doing paperwork way more than I thought I would. :p I don't know what to think about this.

ANYWAYS, this is very belated but I wanted to share our Christmas tree! :D It is small and cute and the cats didn't manage to knock it down until well after Christmas (and, uh, the new year as well haha)



Tada~! I love it, it fit so nicely where we put it. <3

Onto the new year! I've managed to read a book! Already! The Twisted Ones. I'm pleased. I'd bought it at Half-Price Books on a whim (I'm only passable familiar with Ursula Vernon and not familiar at all with her work at T. Kingfisher) and liked it. I, personally, would have preferred it to be a bit scarier (and there were specific choices made to dial back the creepy) but that wasn't the story she was telling. Ultimately, pretty happy to have picked it up!

Also I've signed up for a Storygraph account. The talk of AI was a little alarming but I think it's the kind of AI that I don't actually mind; the kind that you feed information (in this case, books) and it gives you suggestions on what to read next. That's fine. I probably won't use it because I'm there for all the statistics. Also: challenges! I've signed up for a manga publisher reading challenge and a non-fiction reading challenge. These should overlap nicely with my general "reading 24 books a year" challenge. I don't really use GoodReads enough to miss any of its features and the community aspect isn't a priority for me. I like seeing what my friends are up to but I'm not so much interested in the groups or communities or anything like that. I love data and Storygraph looks like that's what it wants most to provide.

...it also helps that the AI felt very earnest in telling me what kind of fiction I like based on the one book I'd archived. ;3; It's trying its best, maybe.

The Warhammer bingo challenge continues apace! I've filled one square (paint a WH40k centerpiece) and am now working on another (painting WH40K skirmish unit - the unit I chose has 10 minis, whoops). I got some really nice advice from Steve the Warhammer Man on how to make the base more engaging. They're all Mechanicus minis so it very much looks like one big mama duck and his ten heavily armed babies. XD I will post pictures when they're finished!

Thanks to everyone who commented on my previous post! I really appreciate you guys. ;o; I took a week to kind of recoup and just chill and tend to the house and stuff before realizing not working at all stresses me out ALMOST as much as working at a terrible job. Weeee! But I didn't need to go into a full time position or anything, that seemed really unnecessary. So guess who's gone back to dog walking! With a different company than last time; this company pays weekly, and pays more for multiple dog households.

Today was my first day! It was basically training (and this dog walking position trained me more than the merchandising position would have!) where I got meet up with my trainer and we basically worked the day together. AND GUYS.


I CAN'T FEEL MY GOTDAMN FEET. XD This is the equivalent of 8.74 miles, according to the internet (14.06km). I'm so tired. XD; Although today was much busier than the average day, according to my trainer.

Aside from my feet hurting, I feel pretty good! And pretty proud of myself! And most of the dogs I had today were good!

Also



Some of the neighborhoods have gorgeous views. :3

So anyways...things are better! I still catch myself getting really anxious sometimes (last night I was a little bit of a mess) but I'm maintaining and handling it and I'm doing much better.

I honestly have no idea what I've been doing with my time. I haven't watched anything new recently, I haven't been drawing very much, I haven't written anything. I've studied a bit of ChoiceScript and I've been working but other than that??? idk, man.

SPEAKING OF WORKING I'm writing my resignation letter to the vet hospital because I've been offered more time at the receptionist job and I'm going to take her up on her offer. It's my sister, btw, so of course. XD It's less hourly pay but more and better hours and I'll be home in the evening for my parents so it's definitely a good idea. I just. Resignation letters are really hard. Aaaaahhh.

Still madly in love with Avengers Academy but I'm getting worried that I won't be able to get Bucky before this event ends. I WILL THROW MONEY AT THIS DUMB GAME IF IT COMES DOWN TO THAT.

The new Voltron cartoon starts June 10th and I didn't even know about it until this morning but I'm excited. :D

Last night when I was at work, I was getting ready to leave and for some reason I said hi. Like, it just fell out of my mouth. And it sounded weird, kind of weak and hoarse. I suddenly experienced this overwhelming feeling of dread and it didn't go away until I was in my car. ;;;; I know it was all in my head but it was still way too spooky.

For context, I work at night at a vet hospital. Alone. So it gets pretty creepy here sometimes! But I like being scared! I used to watch creepy youtube series like Marble Hornets and Everymanhybrid but they ended up getting too dense for me (I eventually went back and completed Marble Hornets but it went too far and ended up being too confusing for me to stay interested in). Everymanhybrid was pretty great but there was just so much to go through. I'm tempted to try again. I really like the kind of dread these series give me, even though - or maybe because - they're so low budget and clearly labors of love.

BUT. Being scared in a real life situation isn't the same and I'm kind of creeped out right now just thinking about it. XD