sob sob, also future things to look forward to!

[nanslice]

So I want to be vague because hmm but I recently, within the past eight months, had a bit of a crisis within my close friendship circle that has made me really question how strong those relationships actually are? Or at least, were? Anyway, I've been, hm, trying to hm, forgive and forget and look on the bright side and bluh and bluh. Last night it all caught up with me and I just. Lost it. Just cried and cried, all hurt feelings and betrayal. It was honestly, haha, a little pathetic. I think a lot of it was because work ended on an extreme sour note and I was just exhausted.

Anyway, so recently I've been making some strides to do things on my own, like you do when you're trying to be an adult who has no local friends to do things with but still wants to do things haha.

I signed up to go to Japanfest this September! It has a ton of vendors with Japanese foods and goods as well as an anime village, sword and martial arts exhibits, and a Japanese arts studio to learn how to do, flower arrangements and tea ceremonies and stuff like that. And a sake and beer garden! I'm pretty excited, that's a ton of stuff to do in one day haha. It's 10-5 so I'm planning on getting there early and staying late.

The Alpharetta Branch Library is hosting "The Haunted History of Ouija" on Oct. 5th and I've signed up with some strangers in a meetup group. XD We might get dinner afterwards and one woman going has volunteered to do tarot card readings! Nice and spoopy. :3

Also I think this year for Halloween I'm going to partake in a Trunk or Treat thing somewhere! I would like to decorate my car and give out candy out of the trunk, that seems like a lot of fun. We never get trick or treaters down my road (it's far too secluded) so this is a good way to partake in the festivities hahahaha

Anyways. I want to find things that are happening sooner but for now, those are good times to look forward to. :3

Comments

[adafrog]

Jealous about Japanfest. Sounds like a lot of fun.

Sorry about your friends.

{{{hugs}}}

[nanslice]

It does! I'll take lots of pictures. :3

It's okay. It's all a learning experience!

*hugs!*

[lassarina]

Those all sound like amazingly cool things to do! I'm a little jealous. ♥

Hang in there. You've got this.

[nanslice]

You are invited! ♥ ♥ But it's a very long drive. XD

I am trying ;3;

[merit]

*big hugs* that really sucks about the friendship! I'm not always great at the forgiveness aspect sometimes.

[nanslice]

I'm hmmm overly forgiving, which allows people to walk all over me hah. I'm trying to be better! And recognize that I wasn't on my best behavior either. But. It's hard. ;;;

*hugs hugs*

[ashkitty]

I don't think it's pathetic to have a good cry over friendships, to be honest. They are important, and trying to not be sad when you are sad doesn't really help. I'm sorry you're having a rough time.

Definitely go and find things to do! They may even end up being ways to meet new friends, but even if they don't, you'll have done something fun.

[nanslice]

I know accepting my feelings is the smart thing to do! But it's hard since I've been kind of just. Wallowing, I guess? Not really making a decision about what I want to do about the situation. Feelings are hard!

Yes! I like to think I'm pretty good company so even if I don't make new friends, I will have hung out with myself. :3

[lil_1337]

*hugs* I'm so sorry to hear that you are having difficulties. Crying is good though, it helps to work through the emotions so you can deal with the issues.

Japanfest sounds amazing! We have something similar in Feb here and I've really enjoyed every time I've gone. I hope you have a great time.

Can't wait to hear about Haunted Ouija, that sounds facinating.

Halloween is my favorite holiday! We did really well with trick or treaters last year so hopefully this year will be good too. I've never done trunk or treat but it sounds like a lot of fun. Anything that involves decorating and giving candy to kids can't be bad.

[nanslice]

Yes, that's true! I don't think I'm really allowing myself to process it completely; I keep trying to go back to how things were before and that's. Not possible? There is no going back. And that's a really hard thing to deal with.

I'm going to take so many pictures of Japanfest! :3 And I'm going to plan to take a lot of notes during the Ouija thing!

Yessss, Halloween is my favorite holiday too and every year it ends up that I don't do anything for Halloween! Which is such a bummer. This year is my year. XD

[lil_1337]

It takes a while to process and deal with loss. Be kind to yourself and give yourself permission to grieve.

Yay for Halloween plans!

[shanaqui]

♥ Exhaustion is horrible for making things suddenly fall on one's head. Hope you are feeling better now!

[nanslice]

Yes, that's true! Being exhausted really takes away my ability to cope haha. I'm feeling a bit better now, thank you! ♥