more medical stuff

[nanslice]

My dad's condition is deteriorating, to the point that I need to help him bathe. I try very hard to remain positive in front of him and not seem upset but it's difficult to see my dad, who has always been so physically powerful, now be so weakened and vulnerable. However, while he has moments despair and shame, overall he's still in good spirits. And he enjoys food and being disappointed at how badly the Atlanta Braves are doing this year.

One way to put a positive spin on this, if such a thing exists, is that it's very likely he'll pass away before the bone cancer has a chance to put him through much pain. And it's horrible to think this but death is inevitable, suffering shouldn't be.

I ended up taking my mom back the doctor on Tuesday because she's been constipated for about a week and none of the laxatives I've gotten for her have helped. They prescribed a laxative that seems to be helping slowly. They suggested a colonoscopy just to rule out colon cancer and I was like jfc are you kidding me, can we please catch a break here? They didn't seem too concerned about that possibility, it was more of a just in case due to Mom's age, but GOD FUCKING DAMN IT.

I'm going to make a more pleasant post later on this evening but I wanted to get this more serious stuff out.

Comments

[tropicsbear]

You're handling things much better than I would be. And I don't think that it's horrible to think that at least your dad won't suffer too much.

[nanslice]

I'm trying, anyway! Sometimes I feel like I'm failing left and right but I'm really trying hard to keep everything together.

Thank you. ;3;